Do you know, you don;t

Hey you know it seems really pretty recent that we were in love but why do it felt like its also pretty recent that we are outta love, how contradicting can this love be, how did we manage to fight so badly, amend, kept going and then fall apart. tell me bout it.

Evaluation

I hvnt had time no time is not a valid factor, I hvnt sat down and evaluate my life my career path, I have been working and the company is paying of well for my age, my start up actually, question: do I see myself progress in there for a long time, or am I seeking alternative routes more often than not, I don't know, it's confusing, or am I just trying to find excuses and maybe I'm just sick of working already,(as usual) but you know what being in this company is no longer like being in any other unknown mncs and such, maybe because is big, or maybe because my age today my responsibilities now is different. I can't just leave a job just like this, like in the past I can, I don't like this job, I hop, dislike, & I hop again, I hv no issues, the company don't, and most importantly, I don't. But now le..it is not the same. I can't just go outta job just like this, no plans awaiting me, no income rolling in, this can no longer work. It's a pity that this is growth but this is indeed growth. I wish I could be some student 22 girl who's main responsibilities is only to study, and just ask for pocket money. Too bad I don't hv the luxury, I feel mature, so mature for my age. I wish I can lay back, to just observe than always being in the picture poking affairs of my loved ones. You know how much I wanto remain laid back so I don't have to shoulder so many things so many feelings, is tiring sometimes having to be the one, the one who always wants things to fall in place, the one who alwas has the initiative to make sure things falls together..... You know sometime I just wish someone could just take lead, so that I can really sit back and just watch.